Im afraid...weird fear...?

well first I became a vegetarian 6 years ago. I really did not like the fact of eating an animal that could have been my friend. then I fell into anorexia 5 years ago. after 2 years after my anorexia started I fell into bulimia. a few months ago I fell back into anorexia... and well now theres a whole new fear. well it was always there as long as I can remember but just recently I fell into listening to the fear. im afraid of anything not organic and not raw. and im afraid of gaining weight. and im also afraid of plates and silverware. bowls and cups. if anything meatlike touched it. or not vegan I wont eat off of it.im terrified. and I personally have to wash the dishes with an organic soap and my own sponye...is there a name for this fear. I am getting help for this.